Petrified
/- to be numb or paralyze with astonishment, horror, or other strong emotion -
I believe there is magic in the world. Not the kind performed on stage with illusion and slight of hand, though that has a truth of its own, but the kind that occurs in life, in nature and when human experience transends knowledge and explanation.
It might be a form of mysticism to some, or spirituality to others. To have experiences is the key to finding it. And there are means for turning experiences into this magic. Mediums, channels. I have found one.
It all starts with doing something that should petrify you.
Buy an old wood boat!